Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Fear and Friendship

Today I had a bone scan. A pretty easy test really (I took a nap while it was running). Friday I have a CT Scan and a PET scan. All of these tests should tell me if cancer has spread to other areas of my body. While I will be glad to know my entire story and what my battle will be, it is frightening to think that there might be more than what I know already. I find that the fear is what exhausts me by the end of the day. The constant barrage of being scared of the unknown is the hardest part. Every ache, pain and twinge that I have frightens me now....."what if....?"

To balance out the fear, I get to realize again what great friends I am blessed with. I had an hour and a half of waiting time in the hospital today. My two friends Pam and Mary made the trek from Kent out to Swedish to wait with me. They brought with them a gift; a blanket. Not just any blanket though. This is the biggest, fluffiest, pinkest blanket on the planet! But what makes it really special is that it is personalized for me with all of the friends names that I have from a book club that I participate in. Did you think book clubs were for talking about books? No. They are for the friends, the fun, the support when you really need it. Thank you to Pam, Lisa, Kris, Mary, Ruth, Tia, Laura, Rhonda and Colleen for being there when I need you. I love you all.


cmmerlino said...


Your blog is so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I am praying for you every step of the way.


Tana Atkinson said...

I'm so glad that you have started a blog. I'm so proud of you and the way that you are handling this, head on and no looking back! You are a strong and courageous person. You WILL get through this. You have an extended family and friends that are always watching out for you. Besides, I hear that pink is a great color!

Lots of love,

Michael said...

Hang in there Tracy! We are praying for your full recovery.

Michael and Mary