Tuesday, May 11, 2010

2 Years



Well I have made it two years.  I was diagnosed on May 7th 2008.  When I tell people that it was two years ago that I was diagnosed, most people ask me how I feel about it.  I feel great about it.  I know that there are people who have depression after a diagnosis, but I'm not one of them.  On May 7th 2009 I felt good about making it a year, but still didn't really feel like myself.  This year I feel like myself.  My energy is back, I am not waiting on surgeries, recovering from surgeries or recuperating from treatment.  My hair is back and I feel healthier than ever.

I wish I could say that I feel like it is all behind me, but that isn't really true.  Cancer is still in my thoughts every single day.  It just doesn't really go away.  I am concerned every time I have an ache or a pain or something that is out of the ordinary. 

I still struggle with what my lessons are supposed to be.  I continue to think that I got cancer for a reason, but I don't yet know what it is.  I learned a lot about myself and about my friends and family but my life isn't drastically different than it was before.  I didn't pack up the family and move into a log cabin or chuck all of my professional experience and become a film director. 

I read recently that most people say that the age when they "found" themselves was 45.  I turned 45 in March so I have high hopes for this year.  I thought my lessons would show up with fireworks and lightning, but that hasn't been the case.  I think this will be my year.  I am happy to be 2 years out.  I am proud of the accomplishment and hopeful for the future.

50 comments:

Electronic Medical Records said...

I wish you have a long and beautiful life.It is very difficult to fight this disease and I know you are doing a great job.

Cancer Support Community said...

Tracy, thank you for sharing your experience with us. Through our work at the Cancer Support Community, we understand many of the challenges that face women during their breast cancer journey. Unfortunately, we also know that most women experience some form of distress due to their cancer. And many feel their emotions are misunderstood.



As a survivor you know firsthand the impact a cancer diagnosis has on women with the disease and their families. To help improve the breast cancer experience, we need to understand more about the emotional and social needs of breast cancer survivors. Please consider joining us by sharing your experiences as part of a national movement of breast cancer survivors. Learn more and join at http://www.breastcancerregistry.org.

Health Blog said...

It is so hard to fight this this disease. I hope you will be happy all of your life.

nancy said...

It's good to read about people on the "other"side of cancer treatment. I am presently undergoing chemo and longing for the day I am finished.

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I wish you have a long and healthful life.

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Secrets said...

Congrats!!! Hope you're still doing well!!!

Undivine Intervention said...

Power to you!!

Jym Leonhard said...

The important thing is that you want to live and overcome the disease. I still struggling with medicines as vicodin for pain that i causes the disease, in addition to my chemotherapies, and the constant radiographs to determine the extent of the disease. I am aware that i have faith and confidence that earn this battle.

Edward Berzin said...

I am glad you are sharing positive thoughts to your readers. I wish you more years to live a happy and healthy life. All the best :)

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Hannah Kate said...

I am so happy that you have such a positive look on things! You inspire me! I hope you continue to live long and joyfully

recovery said...

great post and an an excellent blog. keep up the high spirits and energy for all of those out there who need it. you are an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

Dear friend, I know about breast cancer, I congratulate you for these two years, they are very many more! cancer is very hard but can be overcome! embrace a force.
Patricia (Sevilla, España)

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When you are detected with breast cancer it is very depressive yes...but there are surgeries and medication that can prolong the life and beautifully so.Inspiring to read your story here.

tball said...

Reading this I felt as if I was the one who just wrote that! I also celebrated 2 years in September!

bodytamer said...

I have found that Cancer as is most lessons in this life, more about learning to Love Oneself than anything else. In allowing ourselves to be self indulgent and caring about the inner beautiful spark of light that you are. Love and Nurture yourself with loving friends, great healthy food and water and look within to see where it was that you forgot how to love yourself the first time forgive everyone around you and continue the loving of yourself. You are a great healer and I acknowledge your journey. Love that Cancer for it has brought you some amazing lessons.
Love and many blessings

Tom said...

Hello Tracy,

we found your blog and are inspired by your story. Wanted to thank you for sharing this with us and to let you know that we have added your blog to BreastCancerDiscovery.com blogroll. It can be found on our home page footer and within the pages of our own blog. Keep writing - your bravery is truly inspiring!

Sincerely,

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LANDSCAPES said...

Congratulations!!
And good luck

Maiden of Nature said...

I have only just come across your blog, so inspiring. I too, wish you a long and wonderful life, please keep filing up your blog with beautiful pictures and words :) Some of us take life for granted!

rsctt said...

Let your high hopes soar, and keep up the brave fight!

Mom Blog Society said...

Hi, Seeing that it's October and BCA month, I'm trying to find a way to spread the word to other women. We always think it can't happen to us!Younger women never give it any thought, but it happens, and at any age. I was wondering if you would be interested in coming over to Mom blog society and sharing and informing our mom readers? I hope to see you there spreading the word. http://momblogsociety.com

Angie Christine said...

Congratulations. I was diagnosed this past April at age 36. I do not need chemo or radiation, it was caught early. I had a bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction which just ended three weeks ago. I go back to work in a week and a half after a 6 month leave of absence. I am seeking out other bloggers to connect with. I have run Your Happy Hearts.com since 2009 as I was into health and fitness and hope to be again soon. Thanks for your inspiration and congrats on 2 years.

Bruce said...

Thanks for sharing this blog, All about breast cancer

Ann said...

I am so happy you made it two years, and even more happy you are enjoying it. Being metastatic and terminal, it puzzles me when people who have good health still complain and constantly relive cancer. Yes, it's frightening around scan times and you'll have periods of fear intermittently, but for the most part, you get to live in the beautiful world and can plan something more than 3 months down to road - next scan time. There should be a psychological specialty for women who can't get a passed a cancer diagnosis.

Good luck to you, your attitude is very refreshing; a big gulp of lemonaide on a hot summer's day.

Parsa said...

I hope you are fine by now dear..

Breast cancer said...

Congratulations!!!sub

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I also wishing you a very beautiful and long life. I have no words for you. hats of to you.

Jodypag said...

I applaud you for sharing your experiences for everyone to read and go through with you on some level! When my sister was diagnosed with Breast Cancer we also stumbled upon a wonderful website called www.breastcanceranswers.com Being able to have our questions answered and the downloadable PDF was a great tool to print and bring to the doctor. Thank you for sharing your experiences!

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Positive people like you encourage us to stay positive.

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Hi there,

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, is what can make or break a person. Cancer survivors have always changed my attitude towards life.

Nancy Hunter said...

Tracy, Thanks for sharing your story. I wish you the best and may you have a long life ahead of you. I know that you are a stronger person becasue of what you are dealing with. One never knows what they are going to deal with in this world.

breast cancer said...

I appreciate your positive thought about breast cancer.You have passed a critical moment of your life.God bless you.

cancer said...

I appreciate your positive thought.You have passed a critical moment of your life.Wish you a happy life.

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I just hope that you will be successful in this battle and the Lord will bless you with a long and satisfied life. Stay happy and stay cool, be firm on your faith and always pray that he'll provide all that you need. Thanks a lot! Have a great day!

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